Wake Up

Past addiction - Piano Song (Meiko)

When you're in love, the hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else. It's heart-wrenching. And if you really love that someone, the best thing to do in such a situation is to let go. Ouch! Talk about adding salt to the wound...

I'm not referring this to my love life, and I'm definitely not emotional right now. I just wanted to talk about it as a general topic. Probably been watching one too many real-life dramas of this happening.

So here we are spending endless nights which may last weeks, months, or probably even years, dreaming of that someone. You think of that person, day through night. Like Meiko's song that's playing on my speakers while I'm typing this;

Every little thing I do I do for you,
With every little thing I think a thought of you.
I try so hard not to notice, I try so hard not to care,
I try so hard not to know that you're not here.

You know everything about that someone. You know his/her interests and you try to make them yours. You know where he/she has been and what they've been doing over the weekend. You know when he/she is having a hard time. You know when he/she is struggling through assignments/work. You pray for them. You ask god to bless them, to see them through. You rejoice at their happiness and successes, and over the end of their hardships. You celebrate their accomplishments. You celebrate silently, alone. And that person doesn't even know you exist! Let's not even go to remembering birthdates. That same person, the person you worship day and night, struggles to remember your name!

One word: Pathetic! Wake up! You're not interested in that person. You just have this idea of him/her. Wake up! Have the nerve to admit it, and just leave them alone. Wake up! They won't know that they were your wish the night you saw that shooting star, or when you blew off the candles on your cake. They don't remember where you first met, or what you said and wore. They don't care if you're sad, or if you're not feeling well. Wake up! You're not part of his/her life!

... And they shouldn't be a part of yours. They don't deserve it.
Wake up!

You must not take what's not yours, and not give someone things which are not theirs. Wake up!